I lost it...

Today was an INTERESTING day. i had to work all day today 11-10 and it didnt help that i didnt get enough sleep last night. So i go in with the mindset of "Fuck i dont wana work, how can i make dis go by fast". So i go in, and immediately sent outside to work by the big pool..Fuk mayn its like super hot nd shit.fuk.lol. So i go and its really windy..and it got so windy that it blew down are stand ..literally. I had to get help from guests nd shit.lol

So the day goes by and whatnot.Then im outside,...again but with Jordan..and we were talking and somehow got to the topic on religion. idk to me it kinda got intense.lol
It got to a scenario on
"IF YOU WERE IN AN AIRPLANE AND YOU KNOW THAT THERE IS A PARACHUTE UNDERNEATH UR SEAT RIGHT? AND THE PILOT MAKES AN ANNOUNCEMENT THAT WE WILL CRASH. YOU SEE PPL START JUMPIN OUT THE PLANE ONE BY ONE..DO I TAKE THE PARACHUTE AND JUMP?"

Parachute=faith

I had to think for a moment..cuz at this point of my life, i have lil faith.
"WHAT IF THE PARACHUTE FAILS?"

Parachute failure= Realization that there MIGHT not be a heaven or hell or god.

Why take the risk? right?
Then i started thinking more and more about Ok
What if she's right? What happens to Muslims then? Buddhists? Hindu's? Where are they gonna go? Hell? It just doesnt seem right if thats so. Just cause they believe in their own religion and not ours doesnt mean they deserve eternal damnation. Just doesnt seem right.

Me? i have lil faith. Just on what has happen to me in my life, all the bad shit..I just..Lost it...
She then goes"Well..do you think its worth it? to get your faith back in God?"..
..to be honest idk..I dont know..Maybe i do need to go to church often and actually pay attention. Maybe i Do need to get my faith back in Jesus and Believe in him and trust him..Maybe i do need to put on that parachute..and jump.

Whataburger??

so these past couple of days i havent been able to update my blog. Well its 3 in da morning so here it goes.
So the cute lifeguard chick that works at the Clarion left to Ocala..=( there is no point for me to work there any more but..they dont listen to my cries. I have been workin there since Thursday and its been awful. Its hot and boring and hot and ugh and this bitch at the towl hut acts like she has a sand castle up ur vagina..shes a bitch yo.

So today..friday i got out @ 7 and iv been callin most of my friends to see if they wanted to hang. Mission failure so i was like fuck yo, i guess ima jus chill and relax for the night. Then i got a call from my friend he's like
"Yo wutchu doin"
"uhhhhh..nothing"
"im comin over ur house so we can go out."
lol
"ok".so den my friend Damien who i havent chilled wit in a while calls me to see if i wanna go with him bowling with 5 other girls...and he already told one of the girls ima be going so she wont feel left out or somthing.so FUK
Chill with a good friend that i dont see often OR chill wit my homeboy and 5 other girls...Im in a predicament..or what i like to call "A Tight Pickle"
so im like fuk
"Damien, just tell that girl that im sorry i cant make it. Tell her something bad happened and i cudnt go."
"Yo camilo c,mon man!, shes mad cute pretty face, short, bangin body"
"hmmmmmm dam"
"Camilo aww dats fuked up man fuked up"
Den i get a text
from- Ralphy "yo you wana save it for 2morow?"
Angels singing- AAAAAAAWWWWWW
so i ended up going wit damien and it was pretty fun. The girl was cute but i felt bad cuz she was really bored and awkward cuz she didnt know n e one. ..Just like me.lol and plus i had a headache ughh..
Overall it was fun, cuda been better if i didnt get that headache.
DEn i realized that i had a headache cuz i havent eaten the whole day. So we ate at "Whataburger"...DELICIOUSO
I will sleep good tonight.
=)

My time will come..

Ugh depression is the state im in right now. Most of my friends are in college now. Half of them moved into their own apartments, some moved in dorms rooms, some still in their house. But they are all going to college, something that i am not doing right now. I feel like my life..ME, I am frozen and everyone one..the rest of my friends are moving right past me. Thats exactly how I feel right now. But thats right now..

Later I will go to school. I will succeed in what i put my mind to. Watch me. Imma do great and overcome all the odds. I know i have the potential to do something great. All i need is motivation and ambition. Something that I will have to obtain in order to be the person i want to be in the future.

Watch me
i will become great at what i do

Extraordinary Swag

Swagga Like us! Yo that song is hot. T.I., Jay-Z, Kanye West, and Lil Wayne?? Cmon that is a hot collaboration right there. They got the hook from MIA's Paper Planes. I'm tellin u this song hits hard!. WHAT!?lol



I think my fav. part is T.I.'s

So I've been listening to this song. by Justin Nozuka. Weird last name but i like his song "After Tonight". Makes me wanna sing this song to a girl.lol that's how much i like it.



Justin Nozuka "After Tonight"



Today I noticed the Awesomeness of ordering shit from the Internet rather than going to the stores. Its really convenient except when shits "Out of Stock".FUK!. I was on Uberbotrocks.com and ordering some paintings and the ones I like are already Sold Out
=(.

hm..What have i been doing you say?..nothing really. Working most of the time and hanging with friends. Gotta start saving up some money so i can pay for my soon-to-be cars insurance and tags and shit. Can't Wait
Sexus 98 baby..Sexus 98

I Want You!!!!

SO Friday was one of my freinds last days here. He is going to attend college and moving out so we decided to all chill together. BAck in middle school we had this lil crew, where we all chill together and shit. So we got reunited and didnt know what to do. I said Lazer Tag cuz..cmon lazer tag is the shit.



So we hed to O town to come and find that everything is closed. Fukin A mayne. Then all i here is" Hey we should all go to the movie"



GAY!.

"James. wtf thats fukin homo man. Five guys, no girls, going tot the moives?..fag"

lol

well wouldnt u kno ...we ended up going to the movies..lol DEATH RACE...that was the movie we plannd. Apperently is rated R and dumbass me didnt bring my Id. So we practically begged for the girl to jus let me in cuz mayne im 18! .lol. So she let us in, i winked at her, and blew her a kiss..always works



Death race was pretty good. Action packed, fast paced..and that hot girl..o man.

Her name is Natalie Martinez. Shes apparently a spokemodel for Jennifer Lopez's clothing line. "JLo" and she's cuban..a hot smoking cuban who i would cater to.I think i just fell in love..I want to take her on a date, PAY FOR HER FOOD, AND THEN CALL HER BACK THE NEXT DAY! Thats sum serious shit man.

I love you my Fair Lady.

Overall the movie was pretty good and i went with people that are cool wit me. It was like Old Times again, back in the say shit. Now everyones off to different paths. Thats Life.

What now?

SO i Had to wrk yesterday witht he tropical strom "Fay". I would call it Tropical storm "Gay". Wasn't nothing too serious. A lot of rain and winds but expectated a lot more. Work was ok..until i went to our room!. We had to get our own room due to the storm.YES always wanted to stay there.We were about to play Uno, until Linz started to talk and i knew it was guna be FOREVER.

So i went out and my boss was there and we started to talk. You can say that we had like a 30 min Heart to Heart conversation. He's like family to me and not just my boss. Now i know i can ask him for help when i really need it.

Then after that we played some Uno. I won of course..because c,mon..its me =).But what sukd was that i ended up sleepin on a small ass couch with no pillow or covers.it was so uncomfortable. I barely slept through the night. Felt like i was a fat overwieght baby still in my mothers whomb..cramped and wet.

Then the next day i had to go and chill wit my dad and the family. Pretty fun because i took them to the Premium Outlets. I even got to buy a new shirt. Then the following day ..which is today..i took them to the mall and i bought a shirt and sum Kidrobot keychains.

During my stay i chilled wit my lil cuzins. Theyre both 7 and Cynthia and I were talking about my parents. She goes. "So your dad and your mom broke yup?"

"Yea, they broke up"
"But your mom will always be your mom and your dad will always be your dad"
"Your right.."
"My daddy was telling me that what happened between them had nothing to do with us and dat he will wlays be my dad, so Yuor mom will always be your mom"

That touched me..not in a perv way but in a weird emotional way. A 7 year old was telling me something I will always remember. My mom will always be my mom and my dad will always be my dad..and thats how it will always be.

"Life's full of suprises"

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Everything I Am

So last night I was supposed to go to this club wit some of my friends that i haven't seen in a while. I was excited becuase the last time I saw them was like around school time, so about 2 months. It was pretty fun until we found out that it was actually closed so fuk what to do?

So we ended up going to Old Town, ehh nothing special. But i did see my cousin and my friend who i havent seen since like December. Felt good because i actually did miss them.

So theres this girl im currentl talking to..Idk i feel like we're taking it way too fast which makes me back off..I don't know what to do really. I do care for her, so I dont want to hurt her, but I'm just not a boy to get mixed up with. I learned from experience that right now, Im not supposed to be in a relationship. I don't like to call and report myself on where im at, who am i with, what time am i going home, blah blah blah. Im just not good with that,but i dont know..

So this Kanye West song "Everything I Am" is soo good. Just the simple piano and background vocals makes this song great. Kanye killed it again. This song reminds me of Winter Park because everytime me and Mark go, we end up playing this song a lot. lol




OoO and look what i found! The new Flashing Lights Video. Pretty weird but hey its Kanye, what do you expect??



And on the same topic on Kanye West, C.R.S.'s new video for Everyone Nose remix is out
IDK..pretty cool i guess. I like the old school video games for the background.



while we're in this road full of music videos, I want to talk about someone that should get sum props. He's in the FnF Crew and no im not tlaking about Lupe. Im talking about Gemini. MAYYYYNNE this guy is something else. Not just he can sing and rap, he can do it GOOD. Straight Street im tellin you. YOu probably heard of him already, He's in Lupe's "He say She say" and "Pressure" and on The Cool's "Dumb it Down", but he got his own songs. "Got what you need" is a hot song. check it. He got his debute on the "Fahrenheit 1/15 Part V: Untamed Beast". BAsically is a mixtape on letting the world know about this Chicago based rapper. My favorite song has to be "We on" with Lupe and Pooh Bear, SHITS SIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIICK.

Got what you need

Got What You Need
By Gemini
Best Video Codes

We On






Out of topic..or topics..the movie "Tropic Thunder" has got to be the funniest movie..EVER. If Pineapple Express and Stepbrothers met in a coffe shop and then went on a date, then fell in love and had hot sex and accidently created a by-product which is an even better movie than both of them, ..it wouldn't compare to this movie. I also heard that some people are actually boycotting the movie because of the overly use of the word "retard".Come on you fucking assholes its a fukin movie, lighten up. If your one of those people that are sensitive, dont watch it. Go buy some other pussy shit you probably jerk to.lol
I loved it =)



Parachute Down







And i also finished my drawing of the Robot. ITs called "Art-Official Intelligence".

Robots will Rule the world!! and make it an appealing place.lol
Ima keep drawing and painting and don't care if it looks garbage because drawing itself makes me feel good. Whats your medication?

Art

Art..now what is "art"? Is it pretty pictures of random scenery? Is it cool ass graffiti? or is it beautiful paintings by famous artists? Who actually has the power to say "Hey! that's not art, that a piece of shit!". How dare anyone say what is and isn't "art". You're not the Almighty Art God that we sacrifice goats and shit..asshole.

I believe art can be anything you put your heart, soul, and mind to. From making beats for a song to painting random colors on a canvas. Art cannot be define by one meaning.

This reminds me of one time me and couple of friends went to The Village at Winter Park.

We went to one of my favorite stores, Uberbot. Now Uberbot is da most coolest most bizarre store i've ever been too, that's why it's my favorite store.lol It has cool as paintings and figures.

Now me and my friend Mark were looking at some paintings of Hellboy and some of them were really good, and some were.."EHH". And the prices were like from $200-$600. I was like "WHOAAAA too much for somthing i can try to do." here are some of the paintings

So we walked out the store, me with a bag full of goodies, Mark starts talking about how the prices are way too high for crappy paintings. "We should open a store and sell our own paintings for high prices and make them go outta business!"

"yea we should and draw crappy ass drawings for like $300, Fuck it, mite as well wipe my shit on a piece of white paper and sell it for $500.lol

Mark goes" Hahaha. Imagine you go to your high school reunion Camilo and everyone else is like rich and they ask you ,"Camilo, what have you done with your life?? Look at me im the CEO of my own company!"

I was like.. "shiiiiit..i'll be like" OoO really? well i sold my shit for $5oo what have YOU done with your life?? I SOLD SHIT FOR 500 FUCKIN DOLLARS" " lol

So I guess the point is..Art can be Anything from cool paintings, to simple portraits, to even..shit..and look.

ME and Russell's beautiful doodle. This can Def. Sell for over $500

New to this

Well here i am, blogging. Never would have thought i would be doing this really. My friend(who shall remain nameless) kind of inspired me. I was reading her blog and BAM! it hit me, i have an interesting wierd spontanious life, why not share it with the world. Who know maybe i can make people laugh with my crazy stories, or sad with my depression problem, or make people hate me for alll the fucked up shit I do. I really dont care what type of emotion you get, I only want you to FEEL Something when you read this. I want something to "Spark" inside and make you think, "Wow this kid is pretty cool" or "Wow this kid is fucked up in the head" or even maybe "WOw this kid disgusts me and should burn in hell". And maybe that..That feeling will inspire you to not be like me, and become a better person in life..Inspirata. Get it, Take it in,and let it surge through your soul

lol

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