hm..

Lately iv just been thinkin of alot of shit.

too many thoughts are racing through my mind.

I jus dont even know anymore.

if this doesnt work

im seriously considering about joining the Army

i got nothing else




this made me feel better

Fuck this

So a lot of fun cool shit has been going on.
An i planned on writing about it

but ONE thing..ONE THING fucked it all up

like shit man
this pissed me off soo much
i punched my walls
i broke shit in my room

i got bruises on my knuckles now.

My pathway

So it seems to me that
im being tested

in a way i kinda assumed this would happen

i have to start doing shit on my own

im 19 yrs old

ima grown ass man
gotta start doing shit on my own

Ima start with what i have and work with it

I WILL SUCCEED

Subjects that i will never fully understand.

Girls-

Pretty to look at. Fun to talk to. Understanding them? Yea goodluck with that. Not even trying to complete complex maze filled with mirrors and lights while readin "A brief History in Time' can be as confusing as girls. Unattractive?- making believe u got 'maddd haters' hating on you on your myspace. Please shut the fuck up and grow up. No one is hating you. Your not that important. and your not ghetto so PLEASE dont start off your About Me like "Heyy wuz goodie myspacerzz. Diz be maria, aka gata, gatita, nena,nana,chikita,flaka, freakitona. NO ONE CALLS YOU THAT SHUT THE FUCK UP BITCH

sigh

Space and time- Interesting topic but confusing. Me and my cousin get at this alot saying how no one in the future can come back in time to our time, because time machines dont exist...right now

Obnoxious Hispanic Guys on myspace- WHY??? its like trying to win a race..in a Mentally-challenged Olympics. Yes you might win, but your the biggest retard out there. YEAAA GO YOU Mr. im hood and have cool sunglasses and have cool graphic tees look at me regeatton regeatton regeatton. GO do something usefull...meaning not riding around in ur Honda civic thinkin ur da shit.

Masturbation.- how come everytime i finish, i'm disgusted at myself then have to urinate?

Girls that state that they got hurt by their ex's..then go back to them- What are you? STUPID? apperently cuz u keep going back to them. Is it do you like pain? or do you like looking stupid, cuz if your aiming for both, your doing a great job. How about you learn your mistakes and move on. OOOO SIMPLE


Cars- I will never in my life fully understand the inner workings of a car.. i..am a failure.

why do people work so hard, and end up with nothing but pain.- Self-explanatory

forgot this one on the girls section- Just cuz u copy and paste intellectual and witty phrases onto your myspace doesnt make u more interesting. When we really get to know you, your probably dumb as a fuckin twig in mud.

uhmm thats it for now.
il rant about sum random shit layta

these topics were just in my head at this moment

=)

night

BURNOUT!!!

ughh, just got back from my boyz house and im fuckin pooped out.
we did a "Burnout"

which is basically workin out till u cant no more

100 reps of

benching
curls
squats
calf raises
sit ups
shoulder presses




FUCK DAT
i did 100 of everything except for

sit up-70
shoulder presses-30
and squats...jus..FUCK SQUATS
lol


ughh im feelin good tho
besides that

i met this cool ass chick
but shes in Boston which does me no good wut so ever lol
but shes cool ppl, YOU BETTER COME BACK

cant wait till school starts!!
and i get my FINANCIAL AID CHECK!
woot
idk prolly hook up my car with it
or buy shit that i ACTUALLY NEED

lol

im off

pce

ooo S.H.I.T.

So i went out last night and didnt get home till 6 in da morning

i woke up to my fukin upstairs neighbor blastin MJ super loud.

Woke up around 10 realizing my clear lip stud was outta place

as i try to put it back in, it stopped mid-way in...FUCK

it closed outside so i had to re-pierce it and done!

5 sec later, my lip started to increase in size..NOOOOOOOOOOOOO

its sooo big =(

its soooo swollen now
=(

Life as of now

LAtely i've been working hard and long. Im ok with that im just gettin tired and im getting broke because these Redbulls are making a hole in my wallet
lol
Other than that
life's been straight
cant complain
im healthy
disease less
im ok looking
funny
im ight
lol

Well i talked to my co-worker Israel today and i told him what Stephanie told me about my "specific task"
he says
"God is going to keep sending you signs until you give in, just dont wait too long like Jonah did. God had to send him a fish to get him to realize and hopefully it wont come to that with you"

"Hopefully, i just dont know what he wants.."


yup

Currently watchin
Dew Tour
=)

just finished workin out and my arms are huge..fuk u nature

Well to my readers

Heidi and Emenyahh

im glad it made you smile

and im glad u follow my blog
yessssssss
=D